I mean, don't get me wrong...it does have its perks. I can still window shop and innocently flirt without feeling TOO guilty, but that's not usually my style. When I become emotionally invested in someone, I am usually pretty damn dedicated. And so far, this person hasn't given me any reason to feel otherwise. I've come to the conclusion that karma might finally be paying off for me. Fingers crossed anyway.
The issue that I have with this certain period goes back to a bigger issue I have. I am not good with SHADES OF GREY. If it can be black and white, all the better. I don't like to play games, I don't like to beat around the bush.
Right now I'm in that spot where all of my friends are saying that this guy and I are a couple, but I think it's too soon to go down that path perhaps. We are still getting to know each other, we have a few issues with communication here and there. Maybe I'm just looking for something that is too darn perfect...I don't know.
One thing I do know is that I'm not ready for the "honeymoon" period to end yet. It's too soon for that and I am definitely thriving on the attention. I also don't want to be that person that the guy can just assume is going to be there waiting for him when he has nothing better to do. No fucking way, Jose.
But really, I do consider myself to be quite lucky. I am very happy with the way my love life is going these days, and am dating someone who is quite extraordinary and always seems to make me feel special. Who really knows what's going to happen though...I suppose all you can ever really do is keep things honest and take it one day at a time :).
Oh shit...what am I going to do with my header if I leave single-dom?! Put a big "x" through the word "single?" Hmmmm....
Song of the day: "40 Day Dream" Edward Sharpe & The Magnetic Zeros
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