Did I get the guts to speak up and say what I thought (re: Not so good at goodbye)??
Why yes, yes I did =). And it felt great.
Fishing boy and I were lazy bums hanging out on the boat last night watching old episodes of Weeds. I really don't even remember how the conversation got started about what is going on between us. I think I kind of got the ball rolling by mentioning that we have crappy timing as far as getting to know each other goes. It went pretty easily from there.
He basically agreed with me, but then came right back with, "What do you think? What do you want to do?"
I told him that I wanted to be realistic. I said that I didn't want to sound like a pessimist, that I really like him, and that I want to continue getting to know him, if that's possible from such a distance. But I also said that we should leave it open-ended since it's fairly new...who knows what will happen between now and the next time we see each other. He agreed (and I breathed a huge sigh of relief...pressure gone). Yay for going with the flow.
He made a point of telling me, "I really really like you alot." That's verbatim...gotta leave it to a guy to keep it simple, right? I tried to give him a little reassurance, told him that it's not like I'm out there "hunting" for a guy, but realistically, you never know who you're going to meet.
After that conversation broke all the tension between us, we were able to have a really fun night hanging out, talking, and laughing at the tv. Around 2 a.m. I admitted that I absolutely HAD to go home so I could function at work today. It was a bittersweet goodbye...I could relate it to a question mark at the end of a sentence. Who knows what's next?
Bottom line....I'm still single (surprise surprise!).
Song of the day: "Thinking of You" Pete Yorn (sounds kind of appropriate....a little too on the serious side...damn good song though)
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